Visions of …

My meditations today were on the topic of visions (from the quote in my prior post, “The Deepest Blue“).  I began having visions around the age of twenty, when my heart first was opened to how intimate a relationship with God can be.  To this day I still recall, in vivid detail, the most powerful vision that I’ve ever had:

I was in my mid-twenties and it was my first trip to London.  I walked everywhere, and found myself at St. Paul’s Cathedral.  I was blown away by the spectacular beauty of the murals adorning the ceiling, designed by Sir Christopher Wren, so I leaned forward to get a better look.  I placed my hand on the marble pillar next to me, to steady myself, and WHAM … it was like a bolt of lightning shot through my entire body.  I was paralyzed for what seemed like minutes as so many pictures flooded my mind … not just pictures though, emotions!  It was like I felt a lifetime of emotions from the person whose life I was getting a glimpse of … all packed into what probably was just a few seconds.  My system was so overwhelmed that it was all I could do to sit down … tears were pouring out of my eyes; tears of joy.  That man had a happiness that I had never known … it was breathtaking.  I wandered around St. Paul’s for about four more hours, and the tears just kept coming … intermittently with time.

It was a vision that changed my life.  As the child of a Christian missionary, and a conservative Christian at the time, I adamantly believed what I “knew to be the truth” … that being what I had been taught my whole life.  Suddenly, my eyes were opened to possibilities I had never even dreamed of. Who was that man in my vision?  Why had I had the vision?  Was it some sort of past life experience?  All sorts of things that boggled my mind at the time.  I think that’s how God wants us to be though … in awe and wonder.  In retrospect, I think God gave me that vision as a gift … so that I could eventually learn to grow to an intimate relationship with my Creator … free of the limiting structures that man wants to impose.

Since that time, I have had a lot more visions, although very few as strikingly powerful.  Sometimes they will be visions that reveal a deception … where I will be floating above listening to the person trying to deceive me.  Sometimes my visions are a visit from my mother, or someone that I never have known.  As I began a period of my life where I made a lot of bad decisions, my visions grew frightening at times.  I didn’t know why this was at the time, it’s only in retrospect that I can see that the visions were simply showing me the error of my ways.  Still, I grew to fear my visions … and I also grew to fear what others would think of me if I would share my visions with them.  I got to a point where I only shared my visions with a select few, who I knew would not think I was crazy for saying so.

I share this because I have come to a crossroads in my life … a time for deciding.  I really have already made the decision … to devote my life to wherever, and whatever, God wants me to do or be.  Whether that means staying in the music world, but coming from a spiritual place, or moving on to something else … I don’t know, I really haven’t the faintest clue.  The interesting thing about giving your life to God, and following Divine guidance, is that you perpetually have no idea what will happen … you just have to trust.  Because of the depth of my relationship with God, I have reached a place where I trust completely … and want to dedicate my life to that.

The thing is, when you don’t know what will happen, or what you will confront … you end up facing your greatest fears before they ever happen.  Such was the case today, in my meditations.  As I meditated on Crazy Horse’s quote, I felt my fears come forward, “What if this means that you will start having more and more visions??!  You’ve only been having a handful of visions each year, what if it becomes a daily thing???  What if people start to think you’re crazy because of it?  What if … what if??”

So, as I have learned to do in order to keep my heart chakra open (and constantly connected with God) I confronted my fears and accepted them … I didn’t fight them, or try to run away from them.  I simply accepted them.  There are MANY people, from every religion, who had people think such things about them.  St. John would have probably been locked away in a psych-ward in modern day times.  It doesn’t matter where I am, or what I am doing … the only thing that matters is that I am open, connected to God, and following where God guides me to be.  That’s it.


Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.

We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or their judgments … God LOVES us all!

There is no requirement to change in order to be LOVED by God, or to LOVE God. God is LOVE, and LOVE is God … period. There is no one who God loves more than anyone else … there are only those who choose to LOVE more … to love God more, and consequently then to love each other more. In doing so, we grow closer to God … and know God.

By opening our hearts, and minds to God (free of boundaries like religion, or social trends); by LOVING God … we are exactly where we are meant to be. If we maintain that openness, never allowing any person or event to make us close our hearts, we will be guided by God to be who we are meant to be.

In that space of openness we can then live a life of LOVE, and be guided to where we are meant to be … forever in LOVE.

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  Stephanie Jill Rudd wrote @

Thankyou for sharing this. It is time we all started to speak out of our experiences we have been to scared to share over the years. Then we will realise how many we are! Good crossing of your threshold; hope you dont loiter around them as much as I do! [Humming of course!]

  Religion4All wrote @

Ha ha … to everything turn, turn turn … a time to loiter, a time to move on ;-). Sometimes we have to loiter to let our brains catch up to where God has brought us … to learn the lesson we’re intended to learn (but have been too slow to grasp) ;-).

  iamzion wrote @

Very good… Thanks for being so open; that truly adds to the draw of your writing!

  Religion4All wrote @

Thank you … I often say to my friends, “I’m an open book.” Although I probably don’t share as much with most friends as I have shared on this blog … I suppose that is what of the great things about blogging. 🙂 You can process your breakthroughs, and get feedback on them as well … which I certainly appreciate :-).

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