I decided to splurge today :-).  I haven’t had a full body massage in AGES, and my brother was telling me about this fantastic masseuse he uses.  I’m usually pretty picky, because I like very deep-tissue massage.  Anyhow, I did some meditation before the massage but I thought I would carry my meditations into the massage itself.  My goal was really to receive Healing on more than just a physical level … to create the space for the energy of God’s creation to fill me; focusing on wherever the masseuse’s hands were.

It was all very well, and good … she definitely KNEW her stuff!  After a while it got a LOT more intense.  I told her that I like very deep-tissue massage and she took me at my word … I don’t think I’ve ever had a deeper massage in my life.  I know that there are a LOT of pressure points that are directly tied to different issues that we are working through in our lives.  So what started out as an experiment in Healing ended up going to levels of me that I had never expected.

I was meditating on my prior post (“Light that Lightens”), which dealt with the issue of bondage … that we can either choose to live in bondage to the things of this world, or in bondage to the “Light that Lightens”.  As the massage progressed different parts of my body threw different visions upon the screen of my mind’s eye … I took these visions as being whatever was being worked through with that particular muscle group.

My shoulders and along the spine on my left side seemed all about my daily stresses, and circumstances over the past six months or so … so recent, and tangible events.  When she switched to my right side, suddenly the things that began to flash through my head were all of the emotional things from my past.  Many of these things are things that I have already worked through on one level or another, but it was like the memory of them was stored in my muscles.

With each group that got worked through I focused on her hands as being “warm” and that whatever emotional trauma was attached would just melt and flow out of my open heart chakra.  I got to the point where I realized that a lot of this was about forgiveness … forgiving these things, letting them go, and allowing them to be worked out and removed.  There were times during the massage where it became so penetrating that I wanted to cry out, but I just focused on breathing deeply and evenly … and allowing whatever issues were attached to those painful places to be worked out.

It went very deep … the father issues I have written about recently, familial rejections, the continual rejection that any artist experiences in a career where %80-%90 of the time they are rejected … finally I arrived at something new!  My mother dying.  That wasn’t new, of course, but I never got to see my mom before she died.  I only saw the hollow shell that was her body, bereft of her soul.  My dad and siblings said that she tried to hold on to see me and my sister, but that she just couldn’t hold on.  I realized that this was ultimately the ROOT of any issues with rejection I have had in my lifetime; I felt rejected that my mother didn’t stay alive for me … that was pretty intense.  Of course that doesn’t make sense … but I was only eleven … emotions on that level, at that age, generally don’t make logical sense.

It truly was the massage of a lifetime … literally.  By the time the massage was finished I had literally gone through every possible thing I can think of from my past, let forgiveness run through me, and then just let them flow out of my space on an energy level.

Driving home it took me back to my quote to meditate upon; the bondages that we choose.  I literally had shackles from each one of those past experiences in my life … and now I am unshackled.  My past is just that … the past … and it is in the past.

I move forward re-named and re-affiliated … I am Love, and I am bonded to Love.  Wherever God guides me … that is where I will be, and go.

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Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.

We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or their judgments … God LOVES us all!

There is no requirement to change in order to be LOVED by God, or to LOVE God. God is LOVE, and LOVE is God … period. There is no one who God loves more than anyone else … there are only those who choose to LOVE more … to love God more, and consequently then to love each other more. In doing so, we grow closer to God … and know God.

By opening our hearts, and minds to God (free of boundaries like religion, or social trends); by LOVING God … we are exactly where we are meant to be. If we maintain that openness, never allowing any person or event to make us close our hearts, we will be guided by God to be who we are meant to be.

In that space of openness we can then live a life of LOVE, and be guided to where we are meant to be … forever in LOVE.

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