In meditating on my prior post today, “In Order To Not Be Judged“, I came up with a challenge for myself that I think could be ultimately helpful for anyone to undertake. I began thinking of all the things I have done, and decisions I have made in my life, based on the fear of being judged … or the desire to gain approval (the flip side of that same coin).
As I allowed the mental chatter in my brain to die down I started working it through; using the following line to begin each new sentence:
“In order to not be judged I have …”
The challenge, should you choose to accept and participate, is to go back through your life … even all the way back to when you were a child … and think of how many ways you have acted based on the desire to either not be judged, or to gain acceptance. Some of the instances are insignificant, I found for myself … and others were completely life altering in scope.
What is the reason for this? Well, you cannot let anything go in your life, without first acknowledging its existence. If you are not aware of it, how can it be released? Acknowledge, Accept, Let Go, and Move Forward as your True Self … that is the process that has been revolutionary for me in my own life.
Being a singer/songwriter … if I repeat ANYTHING for a long enough period of time I will find some sort of rhythm and tune to put it into ;-). So, after spending enough time in meditative thought (about a half hour or so), I began writing down my list in the form of a song. Pardon the poetic simplicity … I heard it as a rock song in my head and so I just allowed the melody in my head to bring out the fitting words rhythmically in line with what I was hearing.
Here is my own endeavor into this challenge … in the form of a new song:
In Order To Not Be Judged
By: Religion4All
In order to not be judged
I have cheated;
I wanted acceptance.
In order to not be judged
I’ve repeated
the lies that I knew
tore apart at the fabric
of souls that I loved;
mine included.
In order to not be judged
I’ve avoided
the person I’ve always been
meant to become.
In order to not be judged
I have given away
all my dreams
on the hope that one day
I will gain
your acceptance.
Have I really … have I really?
I explode my lies
and let go my secrets
bursting through the ties
that have bound my
obedience
to all of the things
that you think I should be.
In order to not be judged
I’ve been a bully
and I’ve been a coward.
In order to not be judged
I have altered
my daily existence
all based on
projections of
what you would think.
In order to not be judged
I’ve rejected
what has the most value.
In order to not be judged
I have shut down
my True Self
so that you’re only
judging
my illusion.
Have I really … have I really?
I explode my lies
and let go my secrets
bursting through the ties
that have bound my
obedience
to whatever you think
I should become.
I’m a Warrior of the Light
not some stranger’s delusion
I call forth my right
to be Loved and
a Lover.
There’s no need for me to fight
in my heart is the answer
I’ve sought all this time.
In order to not be judged
I acknowledge;
your actions run right through me.
In order to not be judged
I’ve accepted;
let go of the need
to control my own fate.
I move forward …
and I am free.
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pic by Bronwen McInerney
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Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.
We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or their judgments … God LOVES us all!
There is no requirement to change in order to be LOVED by God, or to LOVE God. God is LOVE, and LOVE is God … period. There is no one who God loves more than anyone else … there are only those who choose to LOVE more … to love God more, and consequently then to love each other more. In doing so, we grow closer to God … and know God.
By opening our hearts, and minds to God (free of boundaries like religion, or social trends); by LOVING God … we are exactly where we are meant to be. If we maintain that openness, never allowing any person or event to make us close our hearts, we will be guided by God to be who we are meant to be.
In that space of openness we can then live a life of LOVE, and be guided to where we are meant to be … forever in LOVE.
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How I recognize myself in this:
“In order to not be judged
I’ve avoided
the person I’ve always been
meant to become.
In order to not be judged
I have given away
all my dreams
on the hope that one day
I will gain
your acceptance.”
Thank you for these words!
So glad they have meaning for you, Julien … thanks for sharing! 🙂