Our pasts can affect us in such interestingly intense ways!  For instance, about a decade ago I had my heart broken for the first time.  It was by FAR the most painful event I have experienced as an adult … I went through worse as a child and teenager, but as an adult … this was the worst!  I could easily see how people kill themselves out of having a broken heart … it took me by such surprise, and it HURT … SO … MUCH!

That heartbreak really formed who I became for almost the next ten years.  Every decision I made was somehow about avoiding such pain … I wanted to be safe!  Well, trying to be an international performer is not really the “safest” of professions to pursue when you are trying to avoid rejection out of fear.  My life became consumed with fear … everywhere I turned.  If only the people who play these games could see and realize how drastically they affect the lives of the people they hurt.

That ONE event that I had allowed to shut me down … to make me close my heart?  It just kept getting more and more magnified, until I felt like I was being suffocated!

This is the result of allowing something, ANYTHING, to make you close your heart … to shut off that trusting connection with God.  You think that you can make yourself more safe in doing so … but things just keep getting worse, and worse, and WORSE.

Sometimes we have to face those greatest fears … and live through them; making ourselves stay OPEN through it all … in order to gain freedom from these self-made prisons.  It would have been better to never have closed oneself in the first place … but it’s hard to do if you have never been “switched on” (as in my post for meditation today, “Turn On The Light“).

I LOVED that part of one of the quotes in that post:

“If we go into a darkened room and turn on the light, it doesn’t matter if the room has been dark for a day, a week, or ten thousand years – we turn on the light and it is illuminated.”

Once you’ve done it; once you’ve been awakened, or turned on the light, or opened your heart, or whatever anyone wants to call it … which is NOT limited to any one religion, or non-religion … then you can go through the same experiences that used to absolutely CRIPPLE you … and be okay.  That doesn’t mean it feels good … your life may be extremely painful and difficult for a good period of time.  If you keep your heart open though, and stay connected to God … no matter what you go through, it will work its way through much more quickly … and you will eventually receive the healing you need.

If you close your heart though … that healing will never come … period … and it will affect every decision you make for the rest of your life.

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Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.

We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or their judgments … God LOVES us all!

There is no requirement to change in order to be LOVED by God, or to LOVE God. God is LOVE, and LOVE is God … period. There is no one who God loves more than anyone else … there are only those who choose to LOVE more … to love God more, and consequently then to love each other more. In doing so, we grow closer to God … and know God.

By opening our hearts, and minds to God (free of boundaries like religion, or social trends); by LOVING God … we are exactly where we are meant to be. If we maintain that openness, never allowing any person or event to make us close our hearts, we will be guided by God to be who we are meant to be.

In that space of openness we can then live a life of LOVE, and be guided to where we are meant to be … forever in LOVE.

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